Week summary 2 | Hipsters | A taste of tantra | Do you choose love or fear?
Friday – A week Workcation in Bali = a life time happiness for me
A day for and with myself. No tc, internet or phone. Just doing what I feel like doing. Today is my Shanti-day. It’s a good day for some extra reflection en to work on my book. Exactly a week ago I landed on the airport in Bali. I had no idea how my time would go and was not really sure where I would be staying. A friend advised me to go to Canguu. Thank you Alissa for that advice!!! She was totally right. The people and environment fit me perfectly. I feel at home here. What did this week of workation in Bali provide me with; what did I achieve, learn, got or decided? I will go into this in another blog.
I’m extremely motivated to to finish this as soon as possible, because I have all the ingredients. It is a matter of production and staring the pre-sale of my book, documentaire, fine-tuning my vision document and creating a plan for opening the first Happy & healthy centrum.
Saturday – Celebration day
While in the south of Holland the carnaval started a whole different party started here. The yogaschool where I (almost) everyday practice yoga is celebrating their one year anniversary and was going about this big. In the morning I was not sure if I wanted to participate in the 7 AM lesson. This lesson would be giving by the owner of the school and I was expecting a (yoga)torture. After a short internal discussion I decided to put my assumptions aside and go to the class. And yes, it was a torture. Not psychical, but mentally. He is pointing out subtle things we can pay attention to in the poses. Stuff that I’ve had heard nobody talking about until now. For example he tells us that it’s not necessary to drink water during the class or to fix your hair or clothes. It’s about being in a pose and become completely still (with as little movement as possible) in the pose. To be honest surrounding myself in silence is and will be a challenge for me.
The beauty of his class was that he mentioned at the start that you don’t find your life mission, but that it finds you and you are “obliged” to fulfill this. I couldn’t agree more! What is your life mission? Do you believe in it? If you do believe in this: Did you discover yours or are you walking in the right direction?
After a great breakfast at “Loving Coconut” with my two new yoga friends (who have been living on Bali a year) I got persuaded to join the next part of the program: Estatic dance. After this I was tired and took a (way too long) siesta. Together with a french boy I went to a reading about “the choice of love & fear”. I didn’t really wanted to go because I don’t believe in workshop shopping and doing useless stuff, like most happiness seekers do. I think they will be searching and not finding. I believe in transformation program’s that are made to fit you and are long term. They go to your root of your challenge and work through on all the levels of your life. I was pleasantly surprised by this (aapparentlypretty known) Dr. Darren Weissman from the USA.
Are you curious on his vision on love check out the Facebook interview I took of him. Visit the LICHTpuntjes festival on 16th of September to see the premiere of the whole documentary about love. You can also support our love and light projects by pre-ordering the documentary.
Sunday – Hipsters in the house
I’ve worked for hours. First from my room and after this working on the index of my new book (Expedtion Self Love) with one of my new friends. After this I had a couple of Skype calls coaching clients and worked on business development with other Lightworkers.
In the evening I wanted to do some more work. My laptop is open and ready for it. In the corner of my eye I see people waiting and I feel bad for sitting on the table on my own. I ask the group if the want to join me. I really want to work, but the company is too interesting. The topics of the conversation were not the lightest: Intentions of quitting alcohol for 2 weeks, the meaning and nonsense of yoga, tantra, entrepreneurship, leadership and dancing without shame even though you know that you’re no star. Every topic was interesting.
After dinner I join them to the birthday party of the owner of a new beach club. Before I know it I get compliments about my eyes, get growled at in a seductive way and kisses and big hugs. The place is filled what I would call ‘hipster hippies’. A mixture between hipsters and hippies. Good looking people (with a trend with women to not wear a bra) who completly go crazy and appear to be shameless, move around freely and touch each other. Because we arrived late to the party we missed the haka a couple of hours before which I really would wanted to experience. But didn’t work out because without the import locals I would have never known about this party. After a heated discussion with a man I am left with the question if surfing has the same effect as meditation? Can you achieve the same thing with surfing daily (on the short and long term) as with daily meditation? I’m curious to get your opinion about this.
Monday – A taste of tantra
It feels like I’ve gotten myself into problems. I’m overwhelmed. Today I have a Skype meeting with a american business partner about the restart of Lightworks USA, a filming appointment with a half Balinese/Australian woman who I’ve met, a introduction meeting with a guy I met on Sunday and I also had a lot of work to do on my administration, marketing & communication. And because I’m on Bali this is all surrounded in my daily adventures of discovering places to eat.
This all together gives me a light feeling of panic at first and it almost makes me to cancel the thing that costs the most time, but is the most important to me: yoga. (I can’t cancel my meditation, because I’m committed to a 1000 days meditation which I really want to achieve) Whatever I do today I have to decide what is really important and has priority. After this I can plan the activities and postpone what really doesn’t fit. Preferable I have enought time for each task without feeling rushed. So that’s the plan.
Today I also gave my first lesson in tantra and it went very good! The view was amazing (and I’m not just talking about the view over the rice fields next to his house). I really like doing this and experience the effect on me and others. I look forward to diving deeper into the world of tantra and pass this feeling and exploration on through private lesson and activities just for fun. And providing a tantra & radical honesty workshop for beginners and also providing this as a standard to our summer school. I must admit it is special to do this with somebody who is ore head than heart and spends more time on his outside than on his inside. This continues to be a challenge for me because I just to be only in my head. I’ve worked very hard to find the way from my head to my heart and my biggest challenge now is to live from and with an open heart. If I get triggered by headpeople it is difficult for me to stay open and connected, because they don’t show them self or open up that quickly. This is the reason why it flows less than possible or good. I love to enjoy the flow of life and want to live this as much as possible. Just because it’s possible. It’s there, you just have to make contact with it and you can surf this flow.
Tuesday – Shanti-days are so AMAZING
It is so great to have nothing on my program. To wake up and literally don’t have to do anything and everything is possible. Love it! I have a blank canvas let’s see what beauty we can create. One of the things I like to do on my Shanti days is doing my daily spiritual practice in peace, going into nature, reflecting (=sexy) and being creative. I feel it is my purpose to travel the world and spread the light and love (by inspiring and activating internal leadership). With my travels and work I can show it’s oke to explore the dark side of yourself, that you can feel boundless power and feel intense happiness. I think it is my purpose to connect and create a platform for LIGHTworkers all over the world who want to make a difference and realize that working together is necessary.
The way I live and work now is sort of instant: on the spot, daily, weekly and monthly inspiriation for myself and the treasures I collect in the world. I look forward to expand Lightworks with more regularity and Lightworkers who spread the love and light together with me. We are living in crazy times and the world needs this. So let all the Lightworkers and/or Sparks of LIGHT.
This day was brilliant! After a delicious breakfast with a guy who was sitting on “my” couch in my favorite cafe a girl talks to me about all her favorite words see noticed on my post-its about the index for my book. To be continued!
Wednesday – I’ve become a human BE-ing, finally it worked!
There are three things that I used to not have and have developed in the destructive relationships I was in: a inner critic, perfectionisme and fear to leave my comfort zone. After four days of postponing I have finally moved out of a place where the energy and frequency was low to a a place 10 seconds away from where I practice yoga (high frequency) with the same price. I was nervous to make this step, but I did it.
“A comfortzone can be a beautiful place, but nothing ever grows there.”
OMG, I’m on fiiiiiiireeee! I choose to take the leap and travel even though everything looked ‘bad’ before I left. I made the conscious choice to be active, make choices, keep going and have confidence that everything would come together. Besides the things that really didn’t work, were exhausting me, worrying about a very important friendship and money that I couldn’t miss everything magically healed itself. After taking action and having focus I got my wanted results. The beauty of that I now got amazing things coming towards me by the most amazing people:
– I found a potential investor in my Happy & Health Centers!
– I have been giving the opportunity to start a pop-up Happy & Health center in the south of France.
– I have been asked to speak at an event which they will organize around me in Byron Bay!
– Again you van find me in the magazine from a dutch newspaper (Telegraaf) about breaking taboos.
Thursday – Getting-things-done-day
Yesterday and today were really productive: good Skype calls with coaches, new clients who needed ‘Verlicht Werken’, the content to my love book is in concept done and the illustrator is now working on a visual index. Next to an intensive yoga class I also interviewed two people for the Expedition Self Love episodes and documentary. I’m tired from all the impressions, hard work and the heat in my room. This is going to be an early night for me.
And before I forget: I got asked to brainstorm about a theatre production by an agent and concert promoter! The cool thing is that 1,5 years ago I talked about this with a Lightworker who is an experienced actrice. The worktable for the cabaret was “De buitenneuker”. It might be a bit rude, but you would notice this in the program of different festivals.
