Week 7 | Waking up | Found true love | The wild woman

The final week of my trip was particular stormy. It wasn’t just the cyclone coming closer than expected, but also the amazing workshop I facilitated, the conflict I had with Claire and the totally unexpected finding of true love. Looking back on my workation I can defintly ay it was a success and that I’m already missing elements of it. The next weeks I’m processing everything that happened and preparing for my final big trip to the USA. But first my final special week. 

Friday – Out in the open

The morning started with an inspiring conversation with a group of women about the archetype the high priestess and the manifestation of her in your life. The priestess stands for letting sexual energy flow, clearly declaring boundaries and having compassion. I never thought about this and it reminded me of my own path. Starting with discovering my inner voice to practicing ‘radical honest’ and living with an open heart. This is the path I’m on and which we provide for clients of Lightworks. How amazing is my work? I’m so grateful to be able to do this with an amazing team! Like my mom always says: “It’s already good, it can only get better.”

Today I also had a major conflict with Claire. I told her that I was not feeling good because I did a lot, but did not manifest anything. It didn’t feel right for me. I put a lot of time in certain things, but the results were insufficient. This annoys me because I am and want to be effective. Claire’s view was different than mine on this matter: “What if you are effective by being?” And although this sounds wonderful I think this doesn’t work. I can be and feel effective, but others, the people I work with, can experience this differently. Being yourself is not always good when it comes to this, you need communication and fine-tuning. Because she didn’t understand this, the situation escalated. We ended up crying at the table with an open heart. I completely opened up. This felt weird, but also very nice.

Saturday – Since months I’m on a real date! 

The past couple of days we spend inside. The cyclone, which we thought would pass us by, hit hard. Whole cities were shut down and there was a weather alarm with advise to stay inside. The showers turned into a nightmare for many. Today was the first day that it wasn’t continuously raining and so I went on a walk and use internet again.

My whole day went totally different than I had planned. I interviewed a man who was trying to hit on me until the point it wasn’t fun anymore. In his eyes I saw the sadness and the attempts to fill the void or lack of love with female attention. Later on the day a different man (with positive and lively energy who intrigued me) asked me on a date after we have been spending 4 hour that day.

After the date we walked to ‘my house’ because he wanted to experience some white tantra (not sexual). I did my mini tantric ritual and he shared very personal things about himself. He really let me look into his heart and was vulnerable. It was a great experience for both of us.

Sunday – The Byron Bay Spirit Festival changed my life 

The reason I’m in Australia is the Byron Bay Spirit Festival! It was supposed to be on friday but got cancelled because of the floods. Today was the first day that I was facilitating my workshop at the festival. Everybody who participated was very enthusiastic. After the workshop I filmed one of them and she wrote a blog where me and my workshop are a big part in. Only the title of the blog is amazing: “How the Byron Bay Spirit Festival has changed my life”. The festival was great but after a couple of hours I was tired. I felt I needed to withdraw myself and create time and space for me. So I meditated and went to bed. This was probably the best thing to do, because this was my last day in Australia.

Monday – In the name of love 

This day I spent with the man I went on a date with. We went to lunchrooms and spontaneously walked hand in hand because it just felt right. We laughed a lot. He also was sad because we were not going to see each other anymore and we had an amazing connection and intimacy. My sadness came later, because in that moment I was too busy being happy and enjoying every moment. It’s beautiful to notice how much this man had touched my heart and that life sometimes can go a very different way.

Tuesday – The wild woman 

Today is my travel day back to the Netherlands. I was tired, had a big reaction to nuts and it wasn’t flowing with the Lightworkers. But before I went to bed I wanted to write down my travel insights, fears and intentions.

I’m afraid. Afraid I’m going to be swept away by everyday hectic. Afraid I’m losing my ‘go with the flow’. On the airport I thought about what working enlightened is to me and if I discovered and did it during my workation. The image of somebody who is one with their nature came to mind. Somebody who instead of going against the flow uses it to keep moving (like dolphins do). By doing this everything is more effortless because you are not creating the flow or doing everything to resist it. Just go with the flow, as is mentioned a lot. My days of creating flow are over and it’s time to release the wild woman in me. A woman who allows herself to be herself, who shows herself, who doesn’t hold back and who is powerful and vulnerable at the same time. And so much more. But maybe I’ll write a entire article about this. What do you think? The question I want you to think about until that time is: Do you share your beauty in a way that is aligned with your true nature?

Wednesday – We’re good at complaining 

Today I arrived in the Netherlands. Before I set foot on dutch ground I got my first complaint. Just after leaving the airplane I was taking a nice picture and was a little in the way with my big backpack. A group of young women passed and mumbled: “You’re totally not in the way”.

I think dutch people are very good at complaining. Sometimes I feel we are spoiled and have developed too far that we are now suffering from first world problems. My immediate reaction is to wonder why I’m here and what I’m doing here. Luckily I already have a trip planned in a couple of weeks to the USA to give a workshop about tantra, radical honesty and living with an open heart AND shooting my last shots for my documentary. Everything I shoot after this are coming in the episodes (this is of course also very amazing).

The afternoon I spend showing the possible covers for our next book online. I love working like this: a real co-creation-party! The involvement and support I feel are amazing! They always have been. One of the comments I got was to create a new image instead of the ones that I showed. I’m happy that I don’t listen to no-sayers and work with all the beautiful things I posess. If I would always listen to no-sayers I would know one thing for sure and that is that the result will never be done. What is something that you wanted to do or create for a long time? What are you working on for quite a while or started that you didn’t finish?

Thursday – One more night and that IT is time! 

This is the final day before the kick-off of our food-project. A couple of months ago I called out to professionals who wanted to create a genius cookbook in a couple of days. To my surprise 20 professionals responded and wanted to contribute to the book. So many of them! To me this meant a GO! And that’s how another impulsive project is born. During my workation the project went to the background and it wasn’t until a week before flying back I realized that I didn’t have a location yet and that all the members of the project haven’t heard anything from me AND we also needed people coming after the cooking and working on the book. Because of the involvement of everybody we managed to do a lot in a very short time and we nearly sold out the event. That was something I couldn’t have hoped for with this preparation.